Fandom Snowflake Challenge #12

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Challenge #12 Commit an Act of Kindness (or two or three ♥)

I think my acts of kindness will be to myself.

Big one first. Last autumn I had an idea for a series of original romance novels that might be fun to write, and I had a nice August/September rolling around in ideas for the stories and the characters and then spent the next three months avoiding it almost entirely. I tried to pick it up again for the new year but I haven't done a single thing for it in the past four weeks. So… I think I'm going to give myself amnesty for this, and just remove it from my list of commitments to myself entirely for the next four weeks at least, maybe even eight, reassess why I'm procrastinating on it and what I can do about it once I'm (hopefully) in a better headspace. In the meantime I can just let myself enjoy writing my chocolatebox assignment and play with some of the prompts for treats.

Another more immediate thing is… I bought a new keyboard yesterday because since I got new hearing aids the sound of my old clicky keyboard has become intolerable, and this is quieter but it's not nearly as nice to type on. I've been trying to remind myself that this one is cheap, it's quiet(er) and I've got it already, and I get so anxious about the idea of returning things, and is mum gonna be annoyed that I can't make my mind up, and even if she isn't aren't I putting her out asking her to drive me there again when the traffic has been awful lately, and what if even the next keyboard I want to get is wrong for me in some way…??? The fact is, I'm not happy with this one, and… I'm allowed to not be happy with things, and to want better things, right? I don't have to always just shut up about things that bother me, even if they're tiny ridiculous things? So, I'll go and exchange it. I'm nearly almost sure that nothing will be as bad as I imagine it will be….

The last thing I think I will do is maybe just try to take the day off and play video games or maybe watch something I love or do some frivolous procrastination type activities without worrying about the time I'm wasting.

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Thank you <3