up and down, round and round
Wednesday, October 16th, 2019 08:21 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
amovingtargetSo, I finished God of War today, and I thought I could talk about that, but I'm having a tough time thinking of what to say about it because I've been on an emotional rollercoaster this week.
I had my first therapy appointment last Thursday -- world mental health day, of all days, not that I knew it at the time -- and it was pretty awful. I mean, the therapist was nice enough, but my hearing has been so bad, and -- why does everyone do this??? -- I would ask her to repeat herself and lean in to try and hear better, and she would lean in and speak quieter. It is some kind of psychological response like, oh, we're whispering right now? Anyway, the real problem is that I live at home and I don't want my family to know, which means trying to rush to and from an appointment in the tiny hour and a half window I have every weekday where no one is in the house. I was a mess, and I got home knowing I just couldn't do that again, but I thought I'd at least have two weeks to brace myself for another one. Then they emailed with an appointment for the 17th and that was the last straw.
I worked on an email explaining my reasons and asking for either email appointments, or to be kept on a waiting list so I could have an appointment in the summer holidays, and sent it on Monday. Didn't get a reply until this afternoon, and neither of those things were on offer. For lack of a better idea and even though it wasn't what I wanted, I told her that I had just installed a text relay app on my pc -- which I haven't actually tried yet myself, and I've never heard many good things about the text relay service -- and if a telephone appointment was all that I could have, maybe we could try that? I guess we'll see.
I had my first therapy appointment last Thursday -- world mental health day, of all days, not that I knew it at the time -- and it was pretty awful. I mean, the therapist was nice enough, but my hearing has been so bad, and -- why does everyone do this??? -- I would ask her to repeat herself and lean in to try and hear better, and she would lean in and speak quieter. It is some kind of psychological response like, oh, we're whispering right now? Anyway, the real problem is that I live at home and I don't want my family to know, which means trying to rush to and from an appointment in the tiny hour and a half window I have every weekday where no one is in the house. I was a mess, and I got home knowing I just couldn't do that again, but I thought I'd at least have two weeks to brace myself for another one. Then they emailed with an appointment for the 17th and that was the last straw.
I worked on an email explaining my reasons and asking for either email appointments, or to be kept on a waiting list so I could have an appointment in the summer holidays, and sent it on Monday. Didn't get a reply until this afternoon, and neither of those things were on offer. For lack of a better idea and even though it wasn't what I wanted, I told her that I had just installed a text relay app on my pc -- which I haven't actually tried yet myself, and I've never heard many good things about the text relay service -- and if a telephone appointment was all that I could have, maybe we could try that? I guess we'll see.
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Date: 2019-10-16 07:51 pm (UTC)That seems like as plausible an explanation as any, but omg, my poor friend. That must be the most frustrating thing.
Fingers crossed that you're able to work something out. It's horrible that it's this hard to get help when everything is so hard for you already.
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Date: 2019-10-17 05:01 am (UTC)[flops]
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Date: 2019-10-17 05:08 am (UTC)