week 02

GOODNESS

• Drafted up five D&D sessions!

• Made some small progress towards decluttering all my junk!

• Did a birthday gift thing that my brother commissioned on behalf of a friend of his!

• Got through chapter 4 of Red Dead Redemption 2!

• I have sneaked my bedtime an hour earlier!

• Helped enemyofperfect with planning their chocolate box fic! And they were actually happy about it!

• I have something of an outline for my own chocolate box fic!

GRUMBLES

• Timers are difficult, my go to pomodoro app started behaving weirdly a couple of weeks ago and I have still been trying to find an alternative that I like, which means a lot of dithering instead of doing. And I was also running up against my brain wanting all the times to be round numbers, and no quarter hours? And I thought 40/20 will work better instead? Which is technically not more work time than before, but at least I could experiment with focusing for longer periods than usual, which worked out...okay?

• So I counted up the hours that I spent on that commission and at minimum wage that came to £60 and I got paid like, a third of that. Which...I’m not mad about, I didn’t expect much, and it’s better than not being paid at all, but I kind of geared myself to bring it up if I was asked what my rate was, but then I wasn’t asked, so. I’m just feeling grumbly about that I guess.

• I started looking into...things I wanted to accomplish this year, and how I might go about that. I think I made a good start! But...I still find it so difficult? Having goals is not really my problem, following through with making them happen is my problem. And then there’s like...the fuckton of shame I have to deal with, like, how dare I act like I’m allowed to have goals? To try to achieve things? Who even cares about what I do?

• I am behind with Critical Role. While this always makes me sad somehow, it reminds me that I will perpetually be a month or so behind with it anyway because I have to wait for the captions to go up, so by the time I get to it, everything is old news. I miss all the announcements. I miss all the community stuff. I can’t go on twitter without hearing people talking about how awesome last episode was, and oh they just had to draw this right away.

• Little crying jag Saturday night, just feeling kind of an unfixable and unhelpable wretch...

GOALS?

• Planning to plan plans.

• Working on the chocolate box fic.

• My niece’s birthday! Try and get that patch done for a gift?

• Looking for DW comms to join, people to follow…